Dazzler

Interview #3 Dazzler

Unique, intriguing, creative and original. These are the thoughts that come to mind when I think of her. She has agreed to share a bit of her life with us but does not want her name used. For now I will call her, Dazzler.

“Here is a vague version of my story of strength found in weakness. Sharing my testimony terrifies me. And yes, I see it as a testimony. It is a long drawn out story that cannot be simplified enough. I wouldn't tell my story without giving Jesus recognition. Because in all honesty, he is the only one that I entrust with my complete broken soul. It is only because of him in down and out situations that I am here alive today. To say anything less would be a complete and utter copout.I have been hurt by telling my story so much in the past that it almost became even more painful than the story itself. The rejection and loss of hope that came from the people I loved was what drove me to the act of attempted suicide. I will never do that again. I have thought about it, but owe it to the Lord too much to take my life for granted. I was given a second chance and a third and a fourth and a, I could go on and on. I have tried to give into calling my savior other names, just to find that by no other name will man be saved. I am not a preacher, not out to convert, just a woman who believes what she believes because she has received what she has received and is still receiving. What is that you ask? Grace. And as a man giveth so shall he receive. It is by your faith that you are healed. Hope doesn't love you back. Hope doesn't care for you. Hope is just an attribute of God. Hope is a sliver of the amount of light that truth can shine on a situation. Hope is not strong when you are weak. When you are alone with hope you can't wail in its presence. Hope didn't love you enough to die for you. Hope can take you so far in recovering from fear, pain and sorrow. Jesus will take you all the way.” –Dazzler

These next few sentences are some of the best encouraging words I’ve received in a long time:

“You are obviously going to do great things in the name of Jesus, this is why the devil tried so hard to destroy you. This is what I believe about myself. You are proof that greater is He who is within you then he who is within the world.”

Thank you for your faith!